all right.

now i know why, and it sure explains many inexplicable things over the past few days.

and does that make me feel better?

the general answer is, YES. i always want to know why, even if i don't like the answer. it's always better knowing why, because at least then you know. this is important.

in the very short run, however, it can be quite depressing.

on the other hand, i've got nohrnberg un-mad at me, and that's practically a cause for rejoicing right now.