i keep wanting to eat and i keep getting more and more food and yet everything tastes too salty or too bland, too cold or too hot, and i hate every mouthful. when i'm indoors i am so tired i fall asleep quickly, and when i'm outdoors i feel like throwing up all the time.

this is ridiculous and obviously entirely psychological what i need is to give myself a kick.

to sum:

a) i am being paid to go to school, so i ought to go to school. it is plainly irresponsible to be indoors moping.

b) i do not have to teach while i go to classes, which friends at many other schools have to, so i'm lucky to be able just to work on my classes, and lucky to be having less to deal with than many others, so i ought not feel overworked.

c) it was only a small failure in the long run of things.

d) i am a nincompoop and a wet hen.