after i had unpacked sufficiently and showered and put flowers on the windowstill i lay back on my very comfortable bed, relieved and relaxed, and that was when i felt a sudden surge of anxiety. i was upset enough to take sedatives - thank goodness i could find them in this mess - it was at the top of the box - and i suppose fumbling in boxes looking for them would have increased the panic - i just don't want to risk a full-scale panic attack - and now i'm back in bed and feeling rather miserable and tapping here and waiting to drift off to sleep.