at this time, this stage of things? how ridiculous, how ironic to be feeling this way now, less than one week from finishing entirely, having got my thesis in, graduating in exactly two weeks. now? now to feel burnt out? now to give up trying? now to let 4 years of accomplishment and steady happiness and accumulated joys and learning and confidence fall away overnight? why now? after everything that i have got through and everything that has gone well - now, over three classes, i'm prepared to give everything up, to ruin myself? why? and does knowing this, becoming angrier, help, or is that just empty rhetoric, serving only to convince myself that i have failed, already.