curiously enough, i feel only a vague sense of disgrace rather than happiness. the momentary - pleasure - yesterday - at finishing at all - and earlier this morning, at seeing a bound copy - when something's bound it just looks so much better already - is really - quickly deflated. also a terrible exhaustion rushed on me this afternoon - i went to class - and i heard words - but they didn't register - it isn't even - needing sleep - just a numbness. i seem to be able to write in the mornings. cleaned up the prose and expanded on some of the arguments too, although there is much more to be fixed.

things that are wrong with it:

at least four typo/editting errors that i can see from having changed part of sentences and not remembering to change the other parts of it

a completely screwed up biblio which i should have just kept as "biblio" and stuck every darn thing in there instead of having a works cited and works consulted page because although i had a good idea which books to use in which chapters i wasn't sure which chapters were going to end up in the thing. also lots of missing books

some missing publication info in the footnotes that i forgot to go back to fill in. only i figure it's not that important the only kind of footnotes that really matter are when you explain ideas or give cross references if it's just a matter of telling someone to see a book they can jolly well look in the biblio.

lots of ideas aren't developed. stuff that i just want to put down and rush on to the next thought but never came back to fix.

NO CONCLUSION. sigh. was trying to write both the X chapter and the alcuin chapter and see which works out and of course neither did and time ran out so in the end i condensed some stuff into a tiny abrupt conclusion and turned it in. damn.

and i had a good bit about the thurber and l'engle for the X chapter too. no thurber! and i had a good little bit on xingu!

bloody hell.

things that are good about it: damn thing's done.

some rather good bits after i revamped the prose. think the epithet and biographical riddles was a good idea to build on. hah.

and dedicating it to bob reeder. i think bob is pleased. i hope he is! a shrine!

the downside is that i'm broke. has anyone any idea how much printing and binding costs?! and they're all gone already, even though i had 5 bound copies made this morning. i probably should - get one done for myself before i go home.

going to bed.