am desperate enough to start casting around for plane tickets again, even at this late date, because it now looks like going home after finals (jan 23-feb1) is too short a time for such a high airfare (between $1300-1700). the thought of going home after exams was what kept me going when i decided i couldn't go home over the the reading holidays, but if i can't go in january either the next alternative would be over springbreak, but that is just so far away. not much good trying to find a ticket this late, and nothing will come of it, but i'm looking anyway, just to make myself feel like there's some hope, even though i don't believe i'm going, of course. on a separate note, am dizzy and nauseous and feeling somewhat spacey and can't think how to get through all this work in this state.