oh i can always find something to spend money on. when it's not shoyeido incense and the complete poems of macneice it's anthropologie skirts and prescriptives lipsticks. what i want to do now, however, is to save for an orchid. brattle square florist has beautiful pots of waist-high orchids for about 125 US dollars. they are so stunning i was on the verge of tears when i saw them. if i were good, very good, i would still not deserve them, but it's a start.