i am weak and harrassed and hot and luggage-ful and it's all von's fault for backing out on the cville trip. he is the reason i didn't buy a return ticket to boston and now i'm going to have to haul 45 kg of books across new york on the subway to catch a bus back to boston. i hope his heart is full of remorse, enough for him to meet me at south station to haul my bags home to garden street, but his conscience is most inelastic.