i dreamt of a hall - large and wide - like the immigration halls at airports - but instead of the signs that said "citizens and prs" "asean passports" "other passports" - the signs were of different - i think they were majors, but perhaps they were concentrations in english or something, and for some reason two were completely queue-less and those were the two i couldn't decide between. i can't remember what they said anymore but the general impression was one was for people who knew what they were doing and one was if you didn't, sort of like the equivalent of "haven't declared a major" and then nohrnberg was there too and i said which should i take he said if you're not sure go for the {second} so they don't find you out and you don't seem very worried about your thesis and that's when i woke with a frightened jolt. i don't think that sneaky comment about the thesis was fair at all i needed my sleep too. a visitation and warning from the higher ups or my internal jiminy cricket? it doesn't sound like a frightening dream in the telling now but in it i was very worried and then that last mention of the thesis made me gasp awake in this world and fight the covers off to get to some water.

i almost never have frightening dreams. i have dreams in which i'm being pursued or trapped but then i'm so busy using my brain trying to figure out how to escape or outwit or run that i am not afraid and i don't wake up thinking they were "bad dreams", and the ones that do register as bad dreams have real people in them, angry people miscommunicating and hurting and things are so real that i think it is really all happening and i can't stop crying after i wake up. occasionally i have dark movie-like dreams in which dark cloaked people are escaping over snowscapes at nightfall and mudpaths and rain coming down and huts and rivers roaring but then i am a viewer not participating. the really bad ones involve frogs. (which, as i told all my friends before, that if their lives depended on it, i still wouldn't go near one, sorry) this one i've just had, well, you know how people talk about having dreams where they go to an exam and can't answer any of the questions? i think i've just had the equivalent of an exam dream.