i got a hold of bob yesterday so that he can check books out of the library for me. (nohrnberg warned: "don't let her get you involved in her nefarious schemes) and he asked how i was recovering from the nohrnberg parting. and of course one answer is i am okay; one must eat, sleep and put on clothes, but the other answer is, are we ever okay? how can we bear it - to go away from people we love? i think with nohrnberg this is especially so. i love bob too, he's been someone i trust deeply, who always believed in me, a source of comfort and a pillar of support, and i will miss him terribly, but i don't know i would cry because i'm saying goodbye to bob. with nohrnberg, the tears came immediately and violently. i wonder - if this is because i am sure i'll see bob again some day - but with nohrnberg - he is much older - and frailer - i am afraid - after charles vandersee - that you never know if you'll never see someone again. but above all because he is nohrnberg, because he is my teacher and my mentor and someone i esteem and love so much.