i like yen's away messages. they're always from interesting poems. yesterday i saw that it was from william matthews: impasse/ is where i come to escape from./ it takes/ a deep belief in one's own/ ignorance; / it takes, i tell you, desperate/ measures. a little surprising though, because i thought she didn't much like him. or at least i think we agreed he was okay, butnot that great, and the only line of his i like well is "listen my wary one, it is too late to unlove each other now" or something like that. but people always quote that. totally out of context, of course. yen says it's always good to quote out of context. and she says the reason people journal is that, quoting locke (i think?) out of context, to think often and never to retain so much as one moment is a very useless sort of thinking.

how many people know what "flamy" mean? no, i don't want to know what it means, i want to know how many people know it. don't send me the relevant dictionary page, von. i ask because it is a daniel albright word and nohrnberg has a little story about it. nohrnberg was very consoling about the test (the computer test is diabolical!) the forthcoming lit test (this is an idiotic test!) and very supportive of going home for a while. it's about finding your other leg, he says. anyway i think that's what i want to do anyway, although i shall talk to my parents again this weekend. bob reeder is giving a talk on the winter's tale and a play called the fawn this friday. i kept thinking he meant the animal, until he said, like a flatterer, and i realised he meant a fawn. oh dear. i wonder if i can read winter's tale before then. hmm.

minyin is here with her mother. we walked around the university yesterday, and then went downtown for dinner. talked mostly about medical schools, and systems. they're going to monticello today. you know, i haven't been. how appalling. i've been here four years already. next year i will. i want to go back to sleep.