i am not stupid and paper writing is not hard for me and it's only a short 5 pages but why would nothing come. words would not come they simply do not flow and i can't find a way to organise my thoughts. i have arranged this about twenty different ways and god i hate writing intros and conclusions all the usual ease is gone i feel like i'm writing one of those papers i can't bear to edit what's happening to me. i am going to skip class but even then i don't know i can finish the paper and he certainly won't be in his office after class and it's a friday today so there's no turning it in tomorrow but there's no use worrying about that now under his door by 5pm is what i will strive for whether he is there or not and an email and i am supremely disorganised i have neither got my I20 signed or my graduation paperwork turned in and if i'm here writing this paper till 5pm i most certainly won't make it to garrett hall today and it is the last day. why am i always *indicate eyebrows* this deep? heaven send me taskmasters to keep me on time. i am so panicking you people have no idea.