my uncle is critically ill. he had been discharged from hospital when last i rang home, so i thought everything was fine, they said he was even walking a little, holding onto the railings, but since that call he's had a relapse and been readmitted to hospital, and is in intensive care now. i was going home to new year celebrations but i'm terribly afraid i'll be going home to something else. this is not the first time i've felt i should be home, not living away from my family - and so far away at that.