self help notes:

i am clever. i have ideas. i have a mind that is the right kind of shape for making the kind of connections that produce new and exciting papers. i have got the range to work in more than one field. i know this. at least four of my professors know this. my peers recognise that i am bright and have ideas that surprise them. in conjunction with that people recognise that i'm a wet hen and are protective of me. my peers like me and are all very ready to help me. i need to learn to be brave, and not hide, or wallow, and be willing to show off a bit more instead of all wilting-violet mumble mumble slide under table. to work on: don't be afraid to be stupid, and don't be obsessive-compulsive about papers, and don't be avoidant when it comes to conflict.