finally slept, actually slept for the first time in three days - even if it's only for five hours.

was increasingly afraid that robert aickman's story had happened to me - being cursedly suggestible to stories - and for days achingly tired but unable to sleep - until minyin called and kept me lying in bed talking until i eventually relaxed and fell asleep on her. then had one of the usual dreams - about escaping - why can't i have beautiful dreams for a change? and so, up at 7, and feeling a little desolate, but will go and make breakfast and try and be chipper.