in part it is anxiety about the general exams, in part increasing sense of frustruation and failure at not being able to perform at my own ever-rising standards, but i am extremely edgy and unhappy at the moment. oh i know i've sounded cheerful here for ages, but that is in part me wilfully ignoring doom and distracting myself with frenzied interior decorating and exploring delights of my neighbourhood. well reality has caught up. not only has my zoloft dose been raised again (second time in two months) i am also trying out a new psychoactive drug that makes you more alert and focussed and not so why oh why. increases risk of seizures, but i've never had any seizures before so i should be safe. worsens tinnitus, (i am reading side effects on the web) but i suppose i already have tinnitus no matter what so what difference can that make? tooty toot.